This Is Not What I Thought It Would Be (Unreleased)

In awe and disgust when you touch me
Know this is not what I thought it would be
With your hairy chest so horrible, and sweat dripping on my face
With just one breath my teenage dream buckled and gone to bed

Know this is not, this is not what I thought it would be
This is not what I thought it would be
This is not what I thought it would be
But when you hold me like that I just cannot leave

The smell of your breath blowing in my face makes me sad
Don't you think it's strange you're old enough to be my dad?
When dreamed about, this is not what I really had in mind
And when it's done, the worst part is that never all that kind

Know this is not
Rеpulsed by the thought of it all
Out the back door I go
This is not what I wantеd at all

Know this is not, this is not what I thought it would be
This is not what I thought it would be
This is not what I thought it would be
But when you hold me like that I just cannot leave