Clean

Yuck! Came right out of nowhere
Saw it from the corner of my eye
And it's bigger than it was last time
And fuck I don't wanna go there
Just when I was starting to feel fine
Now I'm gonna lose my mind

Cause just one little thing makes me spiral
Like dirty laundry stuck in a cycle
I'm washing everything down
Rinse it out of my mouth
Scrub until I bleed out
Bleed out, bleed out

Look at what it cost me
God, it's so exhausting
I just want this off me, off me
Will I ever feel clean

Stuck on the kitchen counter
Crying to my brother on the phone
Saying: Michael, what if I die alone?
Alone
And I know it's irrational fear
How do I always end up here
Somehow I always take it there

Cause just one little thing makes me spiral
Like dirty laundry stuck in a cycle
I'm washing everything down
Rinse it out of my mouth
Scrub until I bleed out
Bleed out, bleed out

Look at what it cost me
God, it's so exhausting
I just want this off me, off me

Will I ever
Jump in the water
Get to the bottom
Fixing the problem
Jump in the water
Get to the bottom
Fixing the problem
But it doesn't help
That I go through hell
Just trying to solve em

I'm washing everything down
Rinse it out of my mouth
Scrub until I bleed out
Bleed out, bleed out
Look at what it cost me
God, it's so exhausting
I just want this off me, off me
Will I ever feel clean

Ah, ah, ah, ah
Ah, ah, ah, ah
Ah ,ah, oh will I ever feel clean
Clean
Ah, ah, ah, ah
Ah, ah, ah, ah
Ah, ah, oh will I ever feel clean