Not Mine

You’re my headsman
You’re my butcher
And I’ll let you murder me
But that’s the price I’ll pay
To finally be free

And I know that wherever I go
I’ll carry this weight I was given from you
A burden that just wasn’t mine has been passed onto my shoulders
Although for you it seems like it should be my fault
Responsibilities
That weren’t mine to begin with
You tried to deprive me of all of the very things
That made me who I was
But that’s just your sweet love

You’re my lover
You’re my partner
And I left my house and home
To finally exist
As someone real to you

I tried to empathise more times than I can count
But fought against myself
Did I really deserve that?
You took me for a coward
For leaving you behind
But sadly you’re just too selfish to see outside your shell
You’d never put yourself in my place
To see what I went through
The only one we cared about
The whole time
Was just you

You’re my father
You’re my sire
You have shaped me into life
With traces of your own
Sketching me on paper

No, you can’t, you said
Unless I tell you what to do
No, you’re not that good
I’ll tell you which path you should choose
You’re inferior
You’re a disaster
You’re catastrophic
You cannot
You will not
You should not
I know better
You will fail
You’re reckless
You have no talent
Let me take good care of you – this I promise you
In the name of love I will clip your wings

You’re my monster
You’re my demon
And I pray so that tonight
I’ll look under my bed
And you will not be there

Hey, never mine
You’re never mine
Yes, you placed the blame on me
But never faced head on
All the shit you have done