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Bro, I feel like, I feel like when most people go through shit, anyways
They're not even like, like, bro you don't even just, you don't even feel it no more
You just distract yourself, distract yourself, distract yourself

I feel like that's, that's just what I was doing, man
Like, occasionally, I'd let myself feel stuff, but bro, man's just
I'm not even tryna think about all that shit, for real, you know

And a lot of shit happened, you know, it weren't just-it weren't just her death, it weren't just me like dealing with the grief, it was like, my mum, my mum had a, had like two strokes
My brother had psychosis, like, fuckin' candy reign got taken down, it was bare shit, you know

Fuckin', I just, I don't remember doing that much, but feelin' it, and I just feel like
But when it caught up to me, it caught up to me and I wanted to show what it felt like when it caught up to me but I also wanted to show the bullshit of me distracting myself because that was also and-

You know, I just feel like, for all the grief and, and we going through all this shit, just before then I felt like I had just turned my life around from being homeless to doing the mixtape and then doing Sprinter

Like I actually felt like, rah, my life is going in such a sick direction and that, and I, and I've got out the mud, but you know, you get out of mud, and there's always gonna, and there's always gon' be, and there's always gonna be mud bro