If I Gotta Go

If I gotta go
Can anybody tell me where
And if I gotta go
Does anybody even care

Lo look look
We gon party like it's one nine nine nine
Somethin triggers makin my mind design crime
When at times my minds fine inclinded to find dimes
Resigned from primetime
I need my stars to align when signs say they benigne
Tell whoever cares if a stray happens to hit me
I need to take all the money I made with me
If I'm heaven bound I'll put a hole in every turncoat
If hell bound I'm poppin shit thru the inferno
My jargon is I'm an arsonist
Since 11 when I found out what arson is
Look at me fully styled in that foreign whip
I get a high from it love that johnny carson shit
I got facsination for the aggrvation
Shoot em or? I love the fabrication
Waitin on a antedote but I lack the patience
On the second thought got my own vaccination

If I gotta go
Can anybody tell me where
And if I gotta go
Does anybody even care

Problem is I'm smarter than everybody
But too numb to show it they too dumb to know it
Eventually my a's turned into d's
Eventually my o's made it's way to e
I'm tense I'm not at ease
There's niggaz with degrees
That ain't never made it hot nor turned up the degrees
There's niggaz with credentials accolates paperwork
But could'ntfigure out how to make they paper work
Me I fight to stay alive everyday is work
Especially when they say there's six million ways to murk
I wish the world was more like me
More likely to see thru the eyes that I see
Or be tired like I be
Let's hide our id's
There's holes in my arms
Untied this iv
At times wish the world would comprehend like I do
Know it sound like I don't wanna mend but I'd like to

If I gotta go
Can anybody tell me where
And if I gotta go
Does anybody even care

I wonder what's behind the clouds
Flew all over the world still I could'ntfind out
Maybe I'm normal and everybody else isnt
Apron on over the stove in hells kitchen
Nails bitten failed livin
Another derailed mission for a nigga jail smitten
Enough to get the pound
If I don't like the shit around me
Maybe I should change the shit that I'm around
How that sound