Big Deep

It's cold for autumn and the year is almost at an end
The falling leaves are blowing in the wind again
To sum up these months it's been one forward, two steps back
Slowly but surely down this one-way track

I can't say I don't look back, 'cause I do every day
I can't help but think how things could've changed
I want to believe I can make the most of anything, but
I just can't deny I want to see the spring

'Cause I just feel I'm so far from home
(And nothing is the same)
Things aren't really as I imagined
(Does it ever turn out that way?)
I catch a glimpse of the truth when I dig deep, I'm
Slowly chipping away at the mystery

The truth is I'm between worlds and changing fast
At which point did I become half and half?
I want to run away to a different season
But I just have to know myself to earn my freedom

Somewhere deep inside us all there's a darkness that we fear, and
We can only run away so long before it appears
If you look closely enough, you can meet your alter ego
And maybe see the things about yourself you'd rather not know

I just feel I'm so far from me
(And nothing is the same)
Things aren't really as I imagined
(Does it ever turn out that way?)
I catch a glimpse of the truth when I dig deep, I'm
Slowly chipping away at the mystery

'Cause I feel so far from home
(And nothing is the same)
Things aren't really as I imagined
(Does it ever turn out that way?)
I catch a glimpse of the truth when I dig deep, I'm
Slowly chipping away at the mystery