Scarred

How long was I sleeping?
what time is it now?
Thursday?
really?
how long was I out?
how long was that dream
that I was thinking
I was thinking was real
how long has it been since
I wanted to feel again
and I so want to feel again

I'm scarred
I am so scarred I am so scarred

and I will never be the same
but that's alright
as long as I can breathe and I can move
and I can sleep at night
in every dream I dream is you
in everything I try to do
in every way I want to be
in who I think is me
and how I want to be and

I'm scared
I am so scared
I am so old
skin and bone and heart
is so old and tired
so scarred