I Wish I Had

I wish I had been ready for you
We could have done all those things that lovers do
But I wouldn’t let you in, you had to wait in the dark
All of those years wondering when it would start

So new, having something to save
But the shade grows large in the face of the wave
I stick my head in the sand, I hope it all goes away
Like I always have

I wish I had been ready for you
I love your heart and your shaking body too
But I wouldn’t let you in, you had to wait in the dark
All of those years wondering when it would start

So I'm getting used to dropping my pride
I lay it all out for you, I put it all on the line
I take the right way now, instead of the wrong way out
For the first time

Nothing was a mistake, you’ll learn to love along the way
You’ll bend or you will break, either way a life is made
But you cannot fall through the cracks, we’ll be there to bring you back
Hold you ‘till the dark is through, in the way old lovers do