Yonjuunana

Called to me far away, a girl much younger than the me of today
Dream it almost every night, and when I wake, still can’t get away
Sure, I know it’s always said that every tear will help me face what’s ahead
But I think that’s all a lie and it’ll tear you up instead

(Save me)

Walking through the park at night, a dollar-twenty for a moment alone
Nervous and a little scared, it’s just a habit I started, ya know

Makeup is all rubbed and gone, the real me is left in her place
Sure I wanted this disguise but is no one searching for this face?

If you ever find forgiveness for a girl like me
Could I see your face just one last time? I beg you, please!
If I shine the brightest and become their northern star
Would yo u finally see me here or is it too hard?

Grin and bear, almost there, I’ll smile even if it’s starting to wear
With this dream, I’ll never let you down or lie to you, I swear
Can I dream, can I think that if you were to be by my side
Closing my mouth, you would scold me one more time
Please, tell me what is right

Through the motions every day, I know it’s work, no time here to daze
Will this ever be much fun? Is this the role that I’m suited to play?

Heavy from the wings they placed,
My back is aching from the burden it weighs
It’s nothing like my wings from then, I’m draped in irony today

Soon the night encroaches eating everything I can see
Holding on, I pray to meet you even in my dreams
Shivering and shaking like a kid left in the dark
Could I maybe run to you and hide in your arms?

Sing it out, scream it loud, just let me shout through the pain and the doubt
For my dreams, I’ll give my all again, don’t let me fail now
Can I dream, can I think that if you were to be by my side
Closing my mouth, you would hold me near and sigh

Then in the crowd was the root of it all
That dream repeated back, now rewound and paused
How could this-? I mean, are we meeting for real?
With this face, how should I look or feel?
Ripping through to grab my hand, shook just a bit and feelings ran
This can’t really be the end, I won’t believe it, don’t leave me like this, ah

Like I said…every time…my heart is breaking into pieces again
Tearing me up, breaking me down, all these feelings, I don’t want them
Yeah, now I know we can never turn our clock back around
Though I know it, I’ll!

Grin and bear, almost there, I’ll smile even if it’s hurting to wear
With our dream, I couldn’t let you down or lie to you, I swear
Can I dream, can I think while I’m just so in love with you
That our paths, no, no matter what we choose
Won’t divide us and leave me leaving you