summer 24

Most of the men who've touched me, they should be in jail for it
God, it all comes back right now as I am saying it
Ever since I was alive, I fucking hated it
Now I don't wanna eat, all I taste is bitterness
And I don't wanna sleep 'cause all I see are images
Sometimes I think if I died, you'd feel bad for what you did

I want to throw a party
I want to clean my room
I want to go outside like all the normal people do
I want to wake up early
Just as to see the sky
But all I do, all I do is stay alive

And I still try to explain you like you're a metaphor
But there's nothing free by me crying and screaming on the floor
I hope I never get as bad as summer 24

I want to get a real job
And make my parents proud
I want to see my friends for once and not freak the fuck out
I want to just feel something
Without getting high
But all I do, all I do is stay alive

And all I do is buy some food that all goes bad
And ask my mom why I'm so sad
And take my meds and lay in bed
And lay in bed and lay in bed
And I feel like a fucking kid
With nothing hanging off this fridge
They all have lies
They all have dreams
And fuck you, you took that from me

I'm still so angry
Ever since July
And it takes everything in me to stay alive