Afraid Of Losing Control

Starting off the day
With a lot inside my mind
The concept of loneliness redefined

Everyday is the same
Hiding insecurities
And faking my reality

I'm afraid of losing control
I'm always afraid now

Believe me when I say that I try so hard
And it still not enough to make me surface
I'm drowning in my thoughts
No, it's not a joke and it's not on purpose

Ending off the day
I rest my heavy head
The constant feel of dread

I just want to sleep
To rest my heavy soul
Where there was a heart now lies a hole

Believe me when I say that I try so hard
And it still not enough to make me surface
I'm drowning in my thoughts
No, it's not a joke and it's not on purpose

There's just a lot inside my mind

I don't want to feel it
I don't want to see it
I don't want to taste it
I don't want to hate me