When My Love Stops

I’m at a loss for words
I don’t know what to say but i ache every bone and muscle hurts
Almost feels like i’ve been here before, this is déjà vu, i already wrote this verse

I’ll act all surprised and play along but we both know i got this part rehe-rs-d
And i know typically i’d try to get pity but this time i think she got the worst, ha
She doesn’t even know it yet, this time she got the worst of it
I loved her so much i woulda done anything for her, that’s what she still don’t get
There wasn’t a single thing that i wouldn’t have done, i even told her to choose her pick

Said i’ll do anything just name it, then carved her name into my wrist
And leat a scar a few inches thick just proving there was no limit
Still, i feel she got the worst of it ’cause my love’s gone, i quit but she never loved me
So i’m not losing sh-t but if we ever talk again
D-mn, i’ll be such a different man
If she ask for a favor i’ll say shove it no way there’s not a f-cking chance
Since we’re just friends
You’re no longer in a position to make demands
Listen i’m not here to please you
How’s that make you feel
Jeez, for real babe you’re still gorgeous
But now you got the least appeal
If you thought i acted funny before
Just wait ’till i’m patrice o’neal
It isn’t ideal but remember you chose this
You made it clear now i can’t ignore
There’ll never be a future between us
Where we have kids, one boy one girl
But if you went playing on marrying me
What’d we pick those baby names out for
It feels like i’m always falling short
You say i’ll never be your prince charming
Then i might as well fall on my sword
I admit it’s my fault for spoiling you
Only a boyfriend has these ch-r-s
You surely put me in my place
But leave before i put you in yours, ah
I’m done jumping through hoops
For some ungrateful b-tch
You just came to expect it more and more
You got used to my affection and warmth
’Till it was no longer special like before
And that’s when my feelings became a burden
So you told me to put then in drawer
But if you keep breaking my heart you’ll loose me
I’m sick of this part already
Let’s skip to the end of this nicolas sparks movie
Fast forward do we ever start improving
Are we doomed do we end up together or not?
Is there a twist in the plot looming?
Stewing like what’s in this pot brewing
Is any of this worth doing, huh?
Can you at least tell me why you loved me
But only like any other friend
What’s wrong with me? Am i that ugly?
Whatever it is i’ll understand
She says i don’t know what it is
Well, God d-mn it, think harder then
Think please, think, harder try
It’s easier to pick myself apart once one time
Then always wonder why
I’d rather nkow truth
Than to think there was no reason
I’m just simply not that guy
’Cause then i’ll start to over -n-lyze
And i can accept i’m not the one, just tell me why
Why? ’cause why is the question i’m haunted by
You’re gonna hate when i stop loving you
’Cause when i do
Things went still be all sunshine and lollipops
There’ll be no more rainbows and gumdrops
I swear they’ll be nothing leaft for me
To shout from rooftops
I’m telling you, you’re gonna miss the old me
When my love sto- sto-
When my love stops
You showed me all this attention
You whispered those sweet nothing
As you showered me in affection
Said you couldn’t promise me anything serious
But it was headed in that direction
And soon we were talking about s-x
We were talking about kids
’Till one day a plan hatched
And we thought we should get hitched
Now looking back it was far fetched
To ever think you would fall for me that quick
But you must’ve been faking
’Cause explain how you go from me being
Your potential husband
To being nothing
You’re f-ckin’ crazy
Then you got the b-lls to blame me
As if it’s my fault that my heart
Couldn’t just do the same 180
D-mn, you sure are selfless
You’re such a generous giver
B-tch i gave you everything, every piece of me
And you only gave me like a half sliver
’Cause the other half’s pilfered
But any medication to make me stop carings
Worth choking on a fat pill for
’Cause i don’t wanna love you anymore
And i’ll be willing to forfeit memories
And get brain surgery to get my mind sorted
Until i no longer wanna risk my life for ya
I woulda taken a bullet and died for ya
If they could cure me with a vaccination now
That’d be the only way i’d get shot for ya
But i told ya
I would rather die than live a life without you in it
I’ve bled for you
I’ve engraved your name into my skin and it’s permanent
But i said i’d anything for you so i did it
Sh-t, i said i wouldn’t move on from you and i didn’t
And for the last four years up until now
I f-cking meant it
But you’ve truly pushed me, p-ssed me limit
And proved my love was infinite
’Till my feelings for you were deminished
Then you went and pushed some more
And now my love for you is finished
Again, i’m at loss for words
She used to think i was sweet
But now she treats me like i’m creepy
As if i’d be stalking her
Perched in a tree with binoculars
Just ’cause i told her there’s no lenghts
I wouldn’t f-ckin’ walk for her
Walk a thousand miles ’till my feet bleed
Over broken gl-ss, rocks and dirt
F-ck, it’d hurt
But i’d walk on hot coals for blocks
Until my socks are burnt
And i could list more things that i woulda do
But by the time i talk to you
Everything i stated will not be true
Yeah, next time we talk i won’t feel this way
How doesn’t that bother you?
H-ll, it would bother me if i was you
You don’t even seem phased and i just claimed
I would walk a thousand miles for you
Girl, f-ck a thousand miles
I woulda walked 25 thousand
And that’s all the way around the world
But still i’d do it without a doubt
And i tell you this and you don’t flinch
Well, b-tch after this
You’ll be lucky if i move an inch

I don’t fully grasp
How once in a lifetime this woulda been
It’s not everyday you find someone
Who feels the way i did
Some people wait there whole loves for someone
To feel that way for them
Now what if you took me for granted
And you never find quite as much love again
You’d be missing now
But there’s nothing in store so it’s time to close shop
(I’m lettin’ you go)
You might miss it now
But i know you will when my love stops
(I’m done for good)
Yeah, there’s no going back
When my love stops