Anxiety Song

Oh yay, another day, another way
Another shining opportunity to fuck it up again
Deep breath, do your best
Don't let it in
Don't let that sinking feeling drag you to the bottom
Don't let it win

And everything I ever said
Is rolling around inside my head
It's right before I go to bed
Making me wish that I was dead
My anxiety is trying to kill me

I'm feeling weird but it's perfectly normal
I fall apart and I'm talking in circles
And my therapist said
It's all in my head
But she can't hear the voices

I take what works and I tape it together
I lie to friends and I say that I'm better
I like to pretend that this is the end
Because I can't do this shit all over again
I play God with my plants

And when they die
I'll go and buy another plant
One more regret
Am I an adult yet?
Or is this it?
Is this as good as it gets?

Oh no, I'm all alone with my ghosts
My narrative is backseat driving
Scrambling the reception
And my perceptions perverse
But then reality's worse
Because who can stand to be
With someone as neurotic as me?

I overcompensate
Overcorrecting the things I hate
About myself and past mistakes
So desperate to show you I have changed
My anxiety is trying to kill me

I'm feeling weird but it's perfectly normal
I fall apart and I'm talking in circles
And my therapist said
It's all in my head
But she can't hear the voices

I take what works and I tape it together
I lie to friends and say that I'm better
I like to pretend that this is the end
Because I can't do this shit all over again