Count Me Out

We may not know which way to go
On this dark road
(Mr. Duckworth)
All of these hoes make it difficult
Session 10
Breakthrough

One of these lives, I'ma make things right
With the wrongs I've done, that's one of you now
With the Father, Son, 'til then, I fight
Rain on me, put the blame on me
Got guilt, got hurt, got shame on me
Got six magazines that's aimed at me
Done every magazine, what's fame to me?
It's a game to me, where the bedroom at?
Sleep, I ain't never had affairs with that
What's fair whеn the hearts and the words don't rеach?
What's fair when the money don't take things back?
It's rare when somebody take your dreams back
I care too much, wanna share too much, in my head too much
I shut down too, I ain't there too much
I'm a complex soul, they layered me up
Then broke me down, and morality's dust, I lack in trust
This time around, I trust myself
Please everybody else but myself
All else fails, I was myself
Outdone fear, outdone myself
This year, you better one yourself
Masks on the babies, mask on an opp
Wear masks in the neighborhood stores you shop
But a mask won't hide who you are inside
Look around, the reality's carved in lies
Wipe my ego, dodge my pride
Look myself in the mirror
Amityville, I ain't seen nothin' scarier
I fought like a Pitbull Terrier, blood I shed could fill up aquariums
Tell all my angels: Carry 'em
Every emotion been deprived
Even my strong points couldn't survive
If I didn't learn to love myself, forgive myself a hundred times, dawg

I love when you count me out
I love when you count me out
I love when you count me out
I love when you count me out

Fuck it up, fuck it up, fuck it up, fuck it up, fuckin' it up

How you gon' win my trust when the lies run deep?
How you gon' bend your love when the bad don't sleep? (Sheesh)
Beep, beep, crash our feelings in the middle of the street (vroom, vroom)

Fuck it up, fuck it up, fuck it up, fuck it up, fuckin' it up

When you was at your lowest, tell me, where the hoes was at?
When you was at your lowest, tell me, where the bros was at?
3:30 in the morning, scroll through the call log
Ain't nobody but the mirror lookin' for the fall off

I love when you count me out
I love when you count me out
I love when you count me out
I love when you count me out

My name is in your mouth
Shoo, shoo

It's gon' take more than pride to stop me
Call 911, I caught a body
Sun up now and yesterday is fadin'
Healing's only 'bout a mile away

Let me tell you 'bout the woman I know (that's my baby)
I know karma like to follow us strong (sheesh)
I know millionaires that feel alone (sheesh)
Anytime I couldn't find God, I still could find myself through a song
Many find their life in a phone

Fuck it up, fuck it up, fuck it up, fuck it up, fuckin' it up

You said I'd feel better if I just worked hard without liftin' my head up
That left me fed up
You made me worry
I wanted my best version, but you ignored me
Then changed the story
Then changed the story

Good energy in the room, drop the location, please
Antibiotic for the womb when I'm frustrated, please
Tryna keep my good conscience in rotation
Thoughts in my head, they livin' there with no (tryna keep my good)

I made a decision, never give you my feelings
Fuck with you from, fuck with you from a distance
Some put it on the devil when they fall short
I put it on my ego, lord of all lords
Sometimes I fall for her, dawg

I love when you count me out
I love when you count me out (sheesh)
I love when you count me out (sheesh)
I love when you count me out

My name is in your mouth

Fuck it up, fuck it up, fuck it up, fuck it up, fuckin' it up (true, true)

Miss Regrets, I believe that you done me wrong (Miss Regrets)
Miss Regrets, can you, please, exit out my home? (Miss Regrets)
Miss Regret, I think I'm better off alone (Miss Regrets)
(Miss Regret) Miss Regret, I got these deep regrets

Some things I can't forget
Lord knows I've tried my best
You said it's not my best
I came up out my flesh

Some things I must confess (ay, ay)
Spoke my truth, paid my debt (ay, ay)
Can't you see I'm a wreck? (Ay, ay)
Let me loose, I digress (ay, ay)

This is me and I'm blessed (ay, ay)
This is me and I'm blessed (ay, ay)
This is me and I'm blessed (ay, ay)
This is me and I'm blessed (ay, ay)

Anybody fightin' through the stress? (Ay, ay)
Anybody fightin' through the—?