Broken Kidd

Hey monkey, it's mawmaw
I just wanted to call and check on y'all
Tell y'all I love you and I missed you

Never said I was perfect
Hell, I'm just a human bein'
They say I don't deserve this
I really hope that they don't mean it

Uh
I try my best to paint a picture when I'm writin' these songs
Sometimes it's easier when I pick up the cup and pour strong
Can you blame me? This shit ain't easy to talk about
Only a couple real ones waited at mama's house
Correction, if he's listenin', I meant to say papa's house
Yeah, I still hold a grudge from the day that he kicked me out
I ain't seen him in four years, in a crowd he couldn't pick me out
I was only seventeen and he had me jumpin' couches
But I'm used to it, me and daddy used to play musical chair with houses
I'd come home every Thursday and my mom would ask me all about it
I'd tell her it was perfect, we ate steak for dinner
I didn't even know he slept in trucks when he didn't have me
Asked all of his friends: I got Gabriel, can we crash in?
I used to sleep round hella families, now they in the crowd

Never said I was perfect (thank God)
Hell, I'm just a human bein'
They say I don't deserve this (they say that shit all the time)
I really hope that they don't mean it

I'm standin' up on the stage, lookin' back
At who I used to be
I don't know how I got here, but I'm here
What the hell y'all want from me?
They put my name in lights tonight
I'm somewhere where they all know my name
They sing along to every song
But they don't know my pain

Yeah
I started drinkin' way too much in hopes it'd fix my problems
Twenty-one, and I've had more drinks than a drunk does in a lifetime
At sixteen I smoked more nicotine than a man on a pipeline
Yeah, I'm paid now, I'm still that broken kid, but my name, it carries weight now
At the show sometimes I hit the bus and break down
I thought about crashin' out on the man in the mirror a lotta times
Sometimes I lose my humbleness, get trapped inside these dollar signs
I miss Beezy so damn much, if he was here I swear I'd straighten up
Already know what he would tell me, he'd say, "Kid, you need to put down the cup"
Like I've tried so many times, but these trauma scars done fucked me up

Never said I was perfect
Hell, I'm just a human bein'
They say I don't deserve this
I really hope that they don't mean it

Standin' up on the stage, lookin' back
At who I used to be
I don't know how I got here, but I'm here
What do you want from me?
They put my name in lights tonight
I'm somewhere and they all know my name
They sing along to every song
But they don't know my pain