Hey monkey, it's mawmaw I just wanted to call and check on y'all Tell y'all I love you and I missed you Never said I was perfect Hell, I'm just a human bein' They say I don't deserve this I really hope that they don't mean it Uh I try my best to paint a picture when I'm writin' these songs Sometimes it's easier when I pick up the cup and pour strong Can you blame me? This shit ain't easy to talk about Only a couple real ones waited at mama's house Correction, if he's listenin', I meant to say papa's house Yeah, I still hold a grudge from the day that he kicked me out I ain't seen him in four years, in a crowd he couldn't pick me out I was only seventeen and he had me jumpin' couches But I'm used to it, me and daddy used to play musical chair with houses I'd come home every Thursday and my mom would ask me all about it I'd tell her it was perfect, we ate steak for dinner I didn't even know he slept in trucks when he didn't have me Asked all of his friends: I got Gabriel, can we crash in? I used to sleep round hella families, now they in the crowd Never said I was perfect (thank God) Hell, I'm just a human bein' They say I don't deserve this (they say that shit all the time) I really hope that they don't mean it I'm standin' up on the stage, lookin' back At who I used to be I don't know how I got here, but I'm here What the hell y'all want from me? They put my name in lights tonight I'm somewhere where they all know my name They sing along to every song But they don't know my pain Yeah I started drinkin' way too much in hopes it'd fix my problems Twenty-one, and I've had more drinks than a drunk does in a lifetime At sixteen I smoked more nicotine than a man on a pipeline Yeah, I'm paid now, I'm still that broken kid, but my name, it carries weight now At the show sometimes I hit the bus and break down I thought about crashin' out on the man in the mirror a lotta times Sometimes I lose my humbleness, get trapped inside these dollar signs I miss Beezy so damn much, if he was here I swear I'd straighten up Already know what he would tell me, he'd say, "Kid, you need to put down the cup" Like I've tried so many times, but these trauma scars done fucked me up Never said I was perfect Hell, I'm just a human bein' They say I don't deserve this I really hope that they don't mean it Standin' up on the stage, lookin' back At who I used to be I don't know how I got here, but I'm here What do you want from me? They put my name in lights tonight I'm somewhere and they all know my name They sing along to every song But they don't know my pain