Better Brain

Sometimes I feel that my lyrics is not what I want you to know
Sometimes I feel that I should not be recording it all
But I know when I feel like this
It's him trying to tell me where I should go
But for real I don't want you to know why I fell so low
I know, I've killed her inside her own house
I've broken them and laughed when they felt down
I've lied to them, and then I made it true
And I tried to make them suicide
But by your side, I was just in love
I've destroyed you, and then I told you that what I feel is the real truth
But what can I do?
When all these things that I did, was him commanding me?

But now I've told him to go away from me, away from me
And I don't think you know the way I feel, the way I feel
But I'm not saying I'm right, I know I'm wrong, I know I'm wrong
Please try to see by my side, I've been controlled

I know what I feel just a few will understand
And less will feel, and even less will hold my hand
But did you already felt like you're only a toy for the monster inside?
'Cause I feel it all night
And I want to apologize, I'm so tired to hide
I forgot what is to be alright, I forgot what is to be by my side
I forgot who I really am
But it if I have ever been myself, I can't understand
But not you, but not them, but no one can
I used to act like a big man
But I know I was only a sucker for pain
But then again I may be being this man
I may not be fearing my end, maybe I'm even waiting for it to happen again
And I still being the same
But I feel that I can't stand
But I feel I've never been this man
That now I think I am, not good, but a better man

But now I've told him to go away from me, away from me
And I don't think you know the way I feel, the way I feel
But I'm not saying I'm right, I know I'm wrong, I know I'm wrong
Please try to see by my side, I've been controlled

Oh people listening
I know this end sound like I'm recovering
But there's a great chance that I can be lying