Sometimes I feel that my lyrics is not what I want you to know Sometimes I feel that I should not be recording it all But I know when I feel like this It's him trying to tell me where I should go But for real I don't want you to know why I fell so low I know, I've killed her inside her own house I've broken them and laughed when they felt down I've lied to them, and then I made it true And I tried to make them suicide But by your side, I was just in love I've destroyed you, and then I told you that what I feel is the real truth But what can I do? When all these things that I did, was him commanding me? But now I've told him to go away from me, away from me And I don't think you know the way I feel, the way I feel But I'm not saying I'm right, I know I'm wrong, I know I'm wrong Please try to see by my side, I've been controlled I know what I feel just a few will understand And less will feel, and even less will hold my hand But did you already felt like you're only a toy for the monster inside? 'Cause I feel it all night And I want to apologize, I'm so tired to hide I forgot what is to be alright, I forgot what is to be by my side I forgot who I really am But it if I have ever been myself, I can't understand But not you, but not them, but no one can I used to act like a big man But I know I was only a sucker for pain But then again I may be being this man I may not be fearing my end, maybe I'm even waiting for it to happen again And I still being the same But I feel that I can't stand But I feel I've never been this man That now I think I am, not good, but a better man But now I've told him to go away from me, away from me And I don't think you know the way I feel, the way I feel But I'm not saying I'm right, I know I'm wrong, I know I'm wrong Please try to see by my side, I've been controlled Oh people listening I know this end sound like I'm recovering But there's a great chance that I can be lying