Frustations + Solutions

I need some candy to restore my calmness
I've had some crazy freakouts lately
I kicked all my shit around my closet
Nobody is coming to tell me to stop it

My shoes, they scuffed my white walls
I punched my cupcake beanbag (yes, I have a cupcake beanbag)
Till I fell tired and embarrassed enough
And I was careless enough

Feeling like a dick, picking it all up again
Feeling so much like a dick just to pick it up again
Feeling so, so, so, so tired (so tired)
Of feeling so, so, so, so numb (so numb)

Stomped and I screamed there
Flinging ideas straight down from the halls
Like in a movie scene where
All of you watch behind a glass wall

I'm pacing back and fourth
Exhausting myself for my own gratification
To no one
Embarrassing programming

And when I find the mess in the floor, temper tantrum over
Reorganizing all that I tore from life's rightful order
I'll say I learned some sort of lesson
(I wish that I could take it back, but where to start?)
(But where you at? I'm fucking up my photograph)
When I felt dumb enough to question (and I'm losing it)

Feeling like a dick, picking it all up again
So much like a dick just to pick it up again
Everything is so, so, so, so tiring (so tiring)
Everything is so, so, so, so dumb (so dumb)