Loosin' Control

It started out like any other day
I told myself, man I can't live like this another day
My mother say I need to make a change and stop it all
what better time than Sunday morning at the altar call
Im walkin soft and somethings tellin me no, not to go
"man not again, you done been save 3 or four times before"
"and now you trying to go again? man you won't last a week"
"its 9 o clock man turn around and lets go back to sleep" I didn't stop
Now I'm standin there in front of the church
people starring and I'm feeling like I'm one of the worst
I wasn't caring,then the preacher walked up looked me dead in the eye
he said "you ready to change" I said "I'm ready to try"

VERSE 2

All of a sudden had my hands up
and something happened but I couldn't understand what
'cause I was lookin at my life and stupid things I've done
Like the time I walked around in Target with that gun
Ready to kill em but the dude he never came to work
God showed me that was him and all his angels work
and then he showed what would have happened if he didn't care
and I saw my body slumped in the electric chair

VERSE 3

Then He showed some times I could have been erased
Like in that alley with that pistol pointed in my face
I always wondered why that dude just turned and drove away
'cause where I'm from that just don't happen you'd get blown away
He showed that day he had some angels standing by my side
I saw the whole thing in slow motion and it made me cry
I realized I should be gone and sleeping in the ground
nobody special man so why He keepin me around?
But then I found that he wanted me to reach some folks
To take this music use it for some good and teach some folks
But he should know that all I rap about is selling dope
being a mack or pullin out a gat and shootin folks...he don't want that do he?

VERSE 4

Then God said he had some new songs, some positive some every word you hear is true songs
Some change your life 'cause thats the only thing to do songs, believe me dog I used to be out there like you songs
It wasn't long before my shivering and shaking ceased
then he showed me all the places he was taking me
Then he showed me all the folks that my songs would save
and all the things that he would bless me with along the way
and on that day I realized that I was far from perfect
and God had kept me safe from harm until I saw my purpose
And it was worth it cause I get to reach the world without loosing my soul
July 1999 thats when I lost control