Self Infliction

Too young to know
What could have been
Not a care in the world
Until, so silent, not ever aware
Subtle deception holds on so tight
Bleeding me of joy
This black lapse, i kohllapse
Bleeding me, smile is gone
Face of despondency
Through change, so silent
Fighting within, bleeding me
They question my state
I knew they were right
Nothing changed, thoughts change
I let go