Backlash & Vinegar

I carved a hole in the Sun
Black edges
Easy to get lost in there
Easy to get lost out there
I found myself underweight
Trying to fill the gaps
To stop the draft
Where the hope escapes

I gotta hold myself better
Fold out just like a map of a mountain
Be the upsetter
And let these bridges burn

So take it back
That I'm lacking anything
Saying it might make it easier
But it's backlash and vinegar
I'm just a being, being
Wondering if that's even feasible
And if it's unreasonable
To feel

I starved my soul of the one
Thing that now I see
I should've had
I just repeated
'Til I went mad
And this body knows
What this body never shows
Just leave it to guessing

I should write you a letter
Hold out up until the final chapter
Be the successor
And watch this spectre burn

So take it back
That I'm lacking anything
Saying it might make it easier
But it's backlash and vinegar
I'm just a being, being
Wondering if that's even feasible
And if it's unreasonable
To feel