Try

Headaches after another try
I can’t handle one more failure now
It hurts so much just to be alive
My mistakes they took me to the ground

My body aches after another fight
With myself I can’t win this time
So tired of feeling alone
No where to go no one to tell the truth

I'm done with not being clean
So done messing up everything
Done promising to try again
Can someone make me a new brain?

It’s hard to fight this battle on my own
Nobody gets why I do it on repeat, no, no, no, no
Nobody gets it not even me
Wish I could go back, but I can't, no
To when the old me was happier

My hands shake I feel dead inside
No, no, no
Somebody help me I can’t ease my mind
No, no, no
Another battle I have lost
Gotta have faith, to overcome
Demons won’t calm down if I keep feeding them on, on and on

Why do I do it?
I don't know I don't know I don't know

I'm so done with not being clean
Wish this weight would leave me and go away
I'm so done with not being clean
Another try and I’ll finally feel free