confused

I was with you thinking about someone else
You loved me so much, but it wasn't my fault
She's so much more understanding than you
She's so much funnier and smarter
But there's a fire inside of me

I'm so confused
Because I want to be with her
Because I want to be with you
And I don't know what to do
But I lost you

You must hate me now, and I understand
I did my best to let this love flow
I think the wounds you caused me will never be healed
Feelings I can't change
And loves I can't forget

You did me so good that you caused me trauma
I didn't know how to let you go
So you had to teach me
Your words weren't good for me
Your mouth was no longer what I loved to touch

I hope I never see you again
I'm listening to my heart now and it's asking for rest
I still love you
But I'm going to go after her now
I want her

I'm so confused
Because I want to be with her
Because I want to be with you
And I don't know what to do
But I lost you

I'm so confused
Because I want to be with her
Because I want to be with you
And I don't know what to do
But I lost you