Shine

I swore to God that I would make it by the age of 16
I'm out here chasing all the dreams I had since I was a teen
Keep routine, I keep it moving like inhuman regimes
I been working, Tyler Dirden, two of me it's a scheme
She asked me why I'm always stressing if I'm living the dream
Told her I ain't got no commas full of problems and means
To change the world, all for the better bet I'm a fiend
I been scheming for a meaning since sway bars

Been whipping the same cars
Been sipping the same jars
Been ripping the same scars
Been wishing the same stars
But that's alright
But that's alright

Let them shine through the night
Been tripping the same flaws
Been kissing the same broads
Been living the same job's
Been wishing the same stars

Got up here without no help with nobody holding my hand
Spent these days inside the darkest times that I never planned
They all claimed I'm average below the level that passes
But ashes to ashes and dust to dust I make it happen
Keep these secrets in my mind, swear it's fine, I'm a safe
Keep these regrets in the lines I tend to rap for the sake
Of keeping healthy, mama wealthy, couple reasons I wake

Up every morning, question sanity. Great
What would you do if nobody ever believed in you
What would you do if teachers told you that school ain't for you
What is life inside the structure
What is life without a lover
What is life without ambition
To be better than the other

I could never slow it down
Too many held on my back
I got family back across the sea I'm tryna bring back
I got people needing feeding why I'm feinding to rap
I put my city on my map, I do it pray for the stars

Been whipping the same cars
Been sipping the same jars
Been ripping the same scars
Been wishing the same stars
But that's alright
But that's alright

Let them shine through the night
Been tripping the same flaws
Been kissing the same broads
Been living the same job's
Been wishing the same stars

Seems like all my fucking wishes come closer to being ambitions
The bitches that I wish kisses abandon me every instance
But I'm better off alone
Don't call my phone, won't call back
I been sober feeling stoned as if you loved me in fact
Keep it moving like you never left, I fell off the throne

I been wishing for a conversation patiently grown
To hate everyone who left me in my mind all alone
Know you got your life to live, but all my demons have shown
That they're here to stay
Permanently marked like the tats

I have to remind me of the times they hated my tracks
All of the times that I would drop and they would kick back and laugh
And now they get lit off the sack
While I get they bitches in packs
I used to dream of this

The fear of this
The tear I feel could heal the kids
Appeal in this
To deal in this
But people squeal like seals in this

It's real in this
A meal to kids
The drugs have doubled up the sips
A wheel in this
To spin the grips
But never skipping stars

Been whipping the same cars
Been sipping the same jars
Been ripping the same scars
Been wishing the same stars
But that's alright
But that's alright

Let them shine through the night
Been tripping the same flaws
Been kissing the same broads
Been living the same job's
Been wishing the same stars