F
When I look back
Em F
Tracing fingertips over plastic bags
Em C Bm Em
Thinking: I wish I could extrapolate some small intention
Bm Em C D
Or maybe just get your attention for a minute or two
F
Will I die
Em
Or will I get to that ten-year mark?
F Em
Where I beat the extinction of telomeres
Dm E7
And if I do, will you be there with me? Father, sister, brother
F
Charlie, stop smoking
G
Caroline, will you be with me?
Will the baby be alright?
F G
Will I have one of mine?
F
Can I handle it
Even if I do?
G
It's said that my mind is not fit
Or so they said
F
To carry a child
C Am
I guess I'll be fine
F Dm
It wasn't my idea the cocktail of things that twist neurons inside
G
But without them, I'd die
E7
They say there's irony in the music, it's a tragedy, I
Dm G
See nothing Greek in it
Give me a mausoleum in Rhode Island with dad
E7
Grandma, grandpa and Dave
F
Who hung himself real high
Dm G G#°
In the National Park sky, it's a shame and I'm crying right now
Am E7
To get to you, save you if I take my life
G D#°
Find your astral body, put it into my eyes
F
Give you two seconds to cry
G
Take you home, I
I'll give you a blanket
G#° Am
Your spirit can sit and watch TV by my side
D G
'Cause, baby, I
E7
Ran through a time when I felt you were doing it
F
I couldn't handle it, I was in Monaco
F
I couldn't hear what they said on the telephone
G
I had to sing for the prince in two hours
G
Sat in the shower
E7 Dm
Gave myself two seconds to cry
Dm G
It's a shame that we die
C
When I was fifteen, naked, next-door neighbors did a drive-by
F C
Pulled me up by my waist, long hair, to the beachside
F
I wanted to go out like you, swim with the fishes
C
That he caught on Rhode Island beaches
Em F
But, sometimes, it's just not your time
G
Caroline
E
What kind of mother was she to say I'd end up in institutions?
F G C Am
All I wanted to do was kiss Aaron Greene and sit by the lake
F G
Twisting lime into the drinks that they made
E7 F
Have a babe at sixteen, the town I was born in and died
Am G
Aaron ended up dead and not me
C
What the fuck's wrong in your head to send me away?
Never to come back
G E7 F
Exotic places and people don't take the place of being your child
Fm C
I give myself two seconds to cry
Am G
Let it crash over me
Like the waves in the sea
E7 F
Call me Aphrodite
G
As they bow down to me
Dm E F G
Sunbather, Moon chaser, queen of empathy
E7 F
I give myself two seconds to breathe
G
And go back to being a serene queen
E7 F
I just needed two seconds to be me
