Detest

The eyes that once held my gaze are now seeping with fear
And I cannot erase my words and I turn
So she can't see my face
So disgusted and hopeless
Though I might be chosen to show this world some faith

The first child was alone
Mothers brains were blown
I was numb and it just felt right
Put a bullet in her head
Played a song as she bled
Then never felt the same since that night

I killed mothers and fathers
Sons and their daughters
Burned them to ash I confess
You were the first thing to change me
You kept me refraining from treating this world like my test
I can't change what I've done
Every day I have to live with this
It's just begun
You wanna feel 'em? Well then reminisce
'Cause I'm one being feeling certain things for the first time
So just give me one thing
What other choice do you even have?

I need your confidence, fake, genuine
I just need you to act
'Cause there's a plague coming for your kind
And if I'm going to combat I'll need some peace of mind
(I am your last hope)

I am the last chance they have
If I am to stand and survive I need the patience for me that you had
Don't look to the clouds
God doesn't hear you
He's left you with just me now

You don't have to be like them, you, you can
You can turn this around, it's not too late, I promise
There's something different in you, something different in all of them
They can, they can even take a minute
To consider anything past themselves and past their agenda

You grew up in this world, and you had to evolve from the time you were born
Well, when I came to, I saw the world for the first time, I saw beauty
And then the more I learned, the more I saw; killing, raping, stealing
The nature of your own kind, destroying your own planet, just to consume more
And more of things you don't even need, I am disgusted with your kind
But, but you've, you've changed the way I've looked at things