I can't hold on

What do i do to ignore them behind me?
Do i follow my instincts blindly?
Do i hide my pride,from these bad dreams
And give into sad thoughts that are maddening?

Do i,sit here and try to stand it?
Or do,i try to catch them red-handed?
Do i trust some and get fooled by phoniness?
Or do i trust nobody and live in loneliness?

Because i can't hold on,when stretched so thin
I make the right moves but i'm lost within
I put on my daily façade but then. i just end up getting hurt again

If i turn my back i'm defenseless
And to go blindly seems senseless
If i hide my pride and let it all go on,then they'll
Take from me till everything is gone

If i let them go i'll be outdone
But if i try to catch them i'll be outrun
If i'm killed by the questions like a cancer
Then i'll be buried in the silence of the answer

Because i can't hold on,when stretched so thin
I make the right moves but i'm lost within
I put on my daily façade but then. i just end up getting hurt again

How do you think
I've lost so much
I'm so afraid
And i'm out of touch
How do you expect
I will know what to do
When all i know
Is what you tell me to