Overdosed

Standing still my mind in a blur thinking now or never. Youre walking by watching my every move;
is this some test?
I turn around and hope you dont notice Im just a great pretender. Screwn off till next thing you know its another minute passed.
I wish I could figure out what's really important.
*So Im taking one more step holding my breath like its the last time Ill ever breath;
inside I'm screaming.
Dont know what comes next,
I feel overdosed. But reality keeps playing me like I'm not even close.
Shooting straight that aint been my strong suit; its just a hazy picture.
Real love I tune in on TV and even that aint clear.
I keep thinking someday Ill get it, once the numbness has faded.
Oh what's the difference you tell me,
Id really love to hear.
Tell me how I can figure it all out; I am listening.
(*)You there pointing the finger, what you lookn at. Who trying to prove you are; you think you are all that.
Well I can tell you this one thing; Im ready to make my move. I'm wanna get it;
go deeper, nothing to loose.
(*) Taking one more step and I dont know what comes next. Taking one more step and I dont know what; I dont know what comes next.