Dead Inside

Yo, most of the times I find myself in a dark valley
Downtrodden
Been wandering and trying to find my place in the world
Just failure on top of failure
My problems my anxiety and insecurities
They smother me so bad at midnight
Suicide thoughts lingering I see no life
But I still dream

Hell anger and sadness my journey has gone wrong
My destination I don't even know yet
Demons ridin' in my head since I was born yeah
Hell anger and sadness and I'm dead inside

Okay I used to fight I was trying to be a perfect person
Then I decided to quit 'cause uh
They used to hurt my feelings
I knew that people were gonna curse me
But I decided to be away from everyone who thinks he is perfect
I live inside myself and safely observe
I don't wanna argue shit
I've burnt some bridges yeah no shame
My angels just sent me a message
They want to see me in heaven
You've got to show me love
Before I kick the bucket
Y'all miss us when we're far way
My life is full of mistakes
Can't even count my peace days
See hell is where I been staying
Some people were dying young massacred
My soul was flying indecisive
But I needed to fulfill my mission
I had to struggle a lot my angels held me down
When devil had taken my soul
My anger fuels my sorrow
I met myself in doubt
My head in the clouds
My thoughts were lousy
The kid is dead inside
You better give me flowers uh yeah

Hell anger and sadness my journey has gone wrong
My destination I don't even know yet
Demons ridin' in my head since I was born yeah
Hell anger and sadness and I'm dead inside

Shaking demons off my head
And if you hate me stay away from my way
Living sober yeah I'm aware of my fate
Syrup rushing through my my veins
Man I got wounds in my brain self confidence
Yeah, I'm a man with that vision
And I have faith in it
I shed a tear within an hour
I'm fed up with this shit uh
I'm tired I need to sit down
To breathe and rest no doubt we all the sinners
Do you know that life is bitter
Gimmie me some pills yeah so that I can fix all this pain
My heart is full of pain
I'm tryna find my peace
I need to find my place
'Cause I'm living hell on earth
My heart is beating fast
I think it's heart attack
I often show them that smile
And I'm tryna hide my sadness
They laugh at you when you suffer
Then envy you when you survive
From poverty and pain
And tyna make you a sucker
They want you to live insane
They blocking all the ways
They don't wanna see you there up
With God, I'll never fail

Hell anger and sadness my journey has gone wrong
My destination I don't even know yet
Demons ridin' in my head since I was born yeah
Hell anger and sadness and I'm dead inside
Hell anger and sadness my journey has gone wrong
My destination I don't even know yet
Demons ridin' in my head since I was born yeah
Hell anger and sadness and I'm dead inside