A Scarred Man

I might be scarred for life
But it doesn't mean I have to give in
I just need to find my strength within
And win back the right to be happy and free
Like that boy used be
His childhood was taken away from him
It's not what it seems to be
It's just a boy who wasn't allowed to be free

Sometimes I wonder if somewhere inside
There is still that boy
Who liked to dance and sing
Always looking for validation
And forgetting his own pure elation
I don't remember what felt it like
To feel free like that boy in the past
But I know today I do my best

Words can't hurt those
Who don't know what they mean
But once they do, it cuts deep within
And makes any child scared
And perhaps scarred for life

Smiles fade away, joy is gone
Now there's just lies to feed on
A childhood destroyed
By a biased world filled with boogeymen
That would come at night
And I knew they were real back then

As a kid, I didn't know any better
I blame no one but me, ever
How could I be so weak and naive?
To let others push me inside this cave
I didn't want to leave
Just like in 'Plato's cave, that was it for me
There could be nothing out there
But judgment and scary beasts

It was safer to stay inside in my comfort
And yet not so comfort mind
Who isn't afraid of the boogeyman?
He can turn any kid into a cave man

I might be scarred for life
But it doesn't mean I have to give in
I just need to find my strength within
And win back the right to be happy and free
Like that boy used be
His childhood was taken away from him
It's not what it seems to be
It's just a boy who wasn't allowed to be free

Every cruel comment
Every judgment would toughen me
But not making me stronger
Rather turning me into stone

Something that doesn't move, doesn't feel, doesn't smile
Just another statue in a park for less than a mile
Watching people pass by without noticing it
I was afraid then, and I'm still afraid now
It's been years
Still I cannot heal from those wounds so real

I'm just the doorman

They cut too deep
And I've always been too weak

I might be scarred for life
But it doesn't mean I have to give in
I just need to find my strength within
And win back the right to be happy and free
Like that boy used be
His childhood was taken away from him
It's not what it seems to be
It's just a boy who wasn't allowed to be free