Haven't Lived

Why did I
Do this to myself
Laying here

And I
Can’t seem to be able to tell
Reality from fears

Everybody’s growing older
I’m growing dumb
Wish for time machines
And hoping to feel numb

I feel to much
Fall in love
Then out of it
And life
Keeps passing by
And I feel like I haven’t lived

Wake up
Look around
Nobody’s there

It’s not that I
Need someone
But it would be nice to have someone near

Everybody’s earning freedom
I’m earning doubts
Wish for something to set me free
But I still haven’t found it

I feel to much
Fall in love
Then out of it
And life
Keeps passing by
And I feel like I haven’t lived