fabulous wreck

I'm drowning in a sea of essays
Family dinners feel like doomsday
Mom's asking: What's your plan, dear?
I said: To not have a breakdown here
Dad's got the TV too damn loud
I'm screaming inside, but I'm so proud
To be the mess they all despise
But at least my eyeliner's applied

I'm scrolling through our old texts again
Is heartbreak retro, or is it just pain?
My prof says: Focus, but I'm off track
Who knew I'd miss the guy who stole my Mac?

I'm falling apart, but I'm looking divine
Crying in the shower, it's my sparkling time
Wearing ripped jeans, both in fabric and soul
But I'm a fabulous wreck, don't you know?

My roommate's straight and a walking cliché
Won't stop asking: Do you think I'm gay?
I'm tempted to lie, but I say: Dude, no
(But if you were, that beard's gotta go)
Exams are coming, I'm so unprepared
If GPA drops, will anyone care?
Probably not, but let's be real
I'll TikTok my panic for that mass appeal

I keep dreaming of our last goodbye
You said: It's not you, but that was a lie
Now I'm here, stuck in this campus hell
But hey, at least I'm doing swell

I'm falling apart, but I'm looking divine
Crying in the shower, it's my sparkling time
Wearing ripped jeans, both in fabric and soul
But I'm a fabulous wreck, don't you know?

It's tragic, it's magic, this chaos I'm in
I fake it, I make it, and call it a win
My playlist's emo, my coffee's iced
Still texting my ex at 3AM, twice

Family hates my major, I hate their dog
My heart's in pieces, my brain's a fog
But I'll scream-sing this song in my car tonight
Because falling apart never felt so right

I'm falling apart, but I'm looking divine
Crying in the shower, it's my sparkling time
Wearing ripped jeans, both in fabric and soul
But I'm a fabulous wreck, don't you know?

So here's to the gays, the mess, and the tears
We'll slay through heartbreak, face all our fears
Life's a dumpster fire, but hey, that's okay
I'm still the main character, every day