Behind Unseen Walls

How far have I driven myself from that security I once tasted?
I thought I was so much closer to grasping certainty
Waiting for what I've seen to be taken away from me
Inside I hide alone and undefined
A fear breeds as I'm not received leaving a lack of trust
While wanting and wishing for a hand of purity to hold
As you are always pushing me you are always pushing me
We're just wasted prayers without holding onto your embrace
and realizing life is worth living
Accepting acceptance
Time after time these wounds stand to breath again
Help me to stand higher
With hope for tomorrow and confidence to live for today