Ambrosial

Each day seems harder than the last
I find myself struggling
To live to someone else's fullest potential
Let the ugly deliquesce from my face
Jam these fingers down my throat in hopes that tomorrow is easier
Easier than yesterday
A book once filled of photographs, some now removed to prevent onset of pain
I've played this scenario over and over again
I cannot give or take without guilt
Every step taken
The foward momentum striking nerves
Every step taken
This hole widens in my chest, a vicious cycle of pain that is passed on
You passed this curse, this plague
Every touch, every kiss, every embrace... deepens my scars and spreads to others
I cannot love without guilt
Time does not heal, it only makes you weaker
This void lets me know i am destined to die alone
I would lasso her like a cowboy, but my rope isnt long enough
I'm dying here.