Despair

No one could have known I felt this alone
Left on my own to dwell on dying all by myself
I feel my mother won't ever remember
How proud of me she used to be
Did I become the man she saw in me?

We're all just trying to find relevance in our irrelevances
We're all just waiting for our time to die

You build up life inside your head and
When it doesn't happen according to plan
It all comes crashing down
You search for things to help you gain sight
But all you find is that never-ending white light

And I know it's hard falling asleep
When you have nothing to wake up to

No one could have known I felt this alone
Left on my own to dwell on dying all by myself
You build up life inside your head and
When it doesn't happen according to plan
It all comes crashing down
You search for things to help you gain sight
But all you find is that never-ending white light