A Song About Dying

And so as it seems no one wants me around
So I'll pack up and leave and not come back to town
You'll forget about me and hold feelings you found
It's a burden on me but I still think about

My old house where my demons live
My old room I used to do acid in
If there's one thing I've learned from all of this
Its that getting older just means you hate shit

And so as it seems I'm a nihilist now
Everything bothers me without making a sound
Hollow chest broken heart I wake up feeling doubt
I just want it to end can you please help me out
I just need you

To guide me thru
This stupid thing that's in my head
I'm going thru
I feel betrayed every day I'm awake
I just want it to end is that too much to ask for fucks sake

And so as it seems no one wants me around
So I'll cut both my wrists till I fucking bleed out
Leave my body to waste in my room where you found
Me lying there when you promised you would help
But it's too late

I'm near the light
My body aches
And honestly I'm terrified
But one things for certain I'm glad that it's over
And as my life flashes by I spent none sober

And so as it seems I wish I could relive
All the moments I wasted just shooting the shit
With myself in the mirror on drugs as a kid
I'll miss you my dear but don't cry not one bit

I'm sorry, I hate me too
I can't go back
I should've stayed alive for you
And now that it's over I hate this decision
Can you hold me closer I'm losing my vision