I sit on my palms till they go numb I bite my tongue when I talk too much 'Cause once she's started, she'll never shut up Her constant self-loathing can't be fixed with drugs I pass the time with the mirror till I get bored Getting pretty to go to the drug store And every song I know, I study word for word That's the only God I've ever observed And it's so feminine And elegant You like the way I'm delicate It's so damaging How ravishing The way you leave me desolate You like control, I don't mind He wants the cool girl, I will try You want control, I don't mind As long as I can crawl inside (your mind) My friends can't tell where the fuck I'm at They've gotten used to my disappearing act I go ghost, haunt the walls of the room I've been trapped I come alive to renew the suicide pact And I can't sleep or dream or breathe without you (without you) Tell me, baby, what do you think I should do? And every song I've wrote, I've planned every word That's the only time I've ever really heard And it's so feminine And elegant You like the way I'm delicate It's so damaging How ravishing The way you leave me desolate You like control, I don't mind He wants the cool girl, I will try You want control, I don't mind As long as I can crawl inside (your mind)