Mellowed

Tunnel vision is slowly setting in
Blocking out what should be letting in
Letting in
11 years of seeing through alcoholic eyes
Nothing here at all but lows disguised as highs
Days I don't remember now
Fitting in and blacking out
Falling up and spiraling down and down and then
It's down again, and up again
I've mellowed but it's taken so much time

Never needed to think that I was thin
(Anyway) would I wish it on you now
I'm so fucked up
Lay down pacified and completely compromised
Nothing left inside but memories of lies
Days I don't remember now
Of fitting in and falling out
Falling up and spiraling down and down and then
It's down again, but up again
I'm sorry but it doesn't matter now

11 years of seeing through alcoholic eyes
Nothing here at all but lows disguised as highs
Days I don't remember now
Fitting in and falling out
Falling up and spiraling down and down and then

I've mellowed but it's taken so much time
So much time, so much time, so much time