First To Know, Last To Understand

If only
I could catch up to the person that I thought I would be
Getting used to the bad news

Cause by now
Thought I'd buy my mom a house or my dad a spaceship
So we could float around

See it from this view
Lift my head from the screen
And fix my posture too
Still can't tie these shoes
Ran a mile to fall down
Before the finish
First to know but last to understand

Open your eyes, your eyes
Wish I had a theme
Something to keep me up at night
Sure I got a life I love
But it don't feel like mine
Words I try dissolve
Before my tongue can reach the line
Words I can't define

Wishing that the wheels of change would move a little quicker
Don't mix up your faith with mine

In Philly
Khazi took a train downtown to hear me singing off key
Thought I'd be more than this

Crawling to the Moon
To plant our flag in the scene
But I've been failing you
Scared to leave my room
In the prime of my life
And feeling finished
First to know, but last to understand

Open your eyes, your eyes
Wish I had a theme
Something to keep me up at night
Sure I got a life I love
But it don't feel like mine
Words I try dissolve
Before my tongue can reach the line
Words that I don't

Hear me out
Don't hang your head down
Hear me out
Don't hang your head down