Solitude

If anybody asks I am to be left alone
Alone from all of you and to the rest of the world
There is a difference from lonely and alone, to fill the empty void in your soul
But can't I find happiness in myself?

Intrinsically self sustainable, emotionally free and available
The brain replaced by the ego, trapped in illusionary selfish world
Constantly judging and falling short always
The mind will never stop replaying the past

The constant background static that perpetuates painfully all that I lack
True salvation is a state of freedom from fear
From a perceived state of lack, insufficiency
Therefore, from all wanting needing, grasping and clinging

You see time as the means to salvation
Whereas in truth it is the greatest obstacle to salvation
The visions that I've seen are merely pipe dreams of a God or a lack thereof
But what is salvation but a dream of a God or lack thereof

All the hallucinations, all of the time I've spent alone
Provide pain and sorrow followed by euphoria
Just like I came into this world, all by myself, I will leave here
The past cannot survive in your presence, it can only survive in your absence