This Isn't Heaven, It Must Be Hell

I'm so tired
Living a lie
I'm weak I need to leave this lonely life

I'm so fed up
Of lonely nights
I sleep away my days to pass the time

Help me believe I'm something more
Incapable, at least I'm still trying
You don't know what it's like to live alone

Keep trying to climb over mountains
While I'm so locked up in the silence
Give me one good reason I shouldn't go

Don't
Wait for me I'm frozen
Right between my burdens
Can't save me from myself

There's no
Way that I deserve this
Fail to see my purpose
This isn't heaven, it must be hell

I'm letting go
Of what I'm waiting for

I know I'm worth it
But I feel so worthless
And it's not so worth it, no

I'm losing hope
I'm out of control

The pain that's inside
Keeps me so locked inside
Not a fan of my pride, I know

Help me believe I'm something more
Than late nights staying up till the morning
You don't know what it's like to be alone

Keep trying to climb over mountains
While I can't get up off my mattress
Give me one good reason I shouldn't go

So misguided got me falling to my knees (falling to my knees)
Empty practice I could never hope to preach (never hope to preach)
Hollow words don't ever seem to bring me peace
My faith was made fragile by vacant response

That life they promised me was a lie
I fell and burned, they told me I'd fly
Waist deep in frigid water I drown
I inhale to drift further down to my end

Don't wait for me I'm frozen
Right between my burdens
Can't save me from myself

There's no
Way that I deserves this
I fail to see my purpose
This isn't heaven it must be hell