i shouldn't here

I always thought that I'd find peace in never being
Awake long enough to feel anything
I wouldn't venture past the edge of listening
'Cause there was nothing to the table I could bring

It gets harder to conceal it as the evenings pass
That every moment of this year competes to be my last
But when I'm feeling myself fall, you're tightening your grasp oh, oh

Oh, I shouldn't be here
The things I've put you through
There's nothing without you

Oh, I shouldn't be here
The things I've made you lose
I'm nothing without you

I wish you didn't have the strength to carry me
I know it's hard to watch me walk unsteadily
I'd understand if I'm not where you want home to be
You shouldn't have to be afraid every time you leave

But it gets harder to believe it as the evenings pass
That we're now halfway through the year and on my feet I stand
I think there's something in me still that lets you pull me back

Oh, I shouldn't be here
The things I've put you through
There's nothing without you

Oh, I shouldn't be here
The things I've made you lose
I'm nothing without you

You follow me into the night
Just so I can see the Sun rise
You always seem to be alright

I promise you that I will find
A way to give you peace of mind
So please hold on for another while