Only Now

Only now… do I see
The light in the window that once warmed me
And kept me secure inside
Has faded and left my life empty
And taken with it my pride
Seems I've become one of the lonely
And destined to play the part
But I'm not one to give up easy
So I'm making my way back to start

Over and over I'm trying to understand
Now that it's over I finally understand

That only now… do I see
I ignored all the signs that were shown me
While you went your separate way
Believing you were right beside me
Believing each word you would say
You used my worst fear as a weapon
And drove it right through my heart
Our promises now lie broken
As I've lost my way

[Lead: Paul]
[Lead: Manol]

Fed up and tired and so frustrated
Should've known it would end this way
You gave your list of reasons
So I'm backing away backing away
Because I know I know I know
My demons and my crying eyes won't help at all
I guess it's better this way

Head up head out to face the world
No more wasting tears on you
A new road a new beginning
With nothing to lose nothing to lose
Because I know I know I know
My feelings and my broken heart may mend slow
But they'll heal just the same

When I needed you, you were not there
Though I pretended you were
I lied to myself and believed it
Until I was self-assured
When you left I spoke not a word
But then I never knew what to say
And if I did would things be different
Or would you still have turned me away