Underwater

How did I end up here?
Another bullshit year
Drowning in my fears

Oh
Just a stupid girl
In her own messed up world
Trynna disappear

Will they even care if I'm not here?

I'm lost can't be found
I speak but make no sound
My thoughts weigh me down
Will I swim or will I drown?
Words are spoken underwater
Through the echoes in the waves
Maybe everything gets better
If I don't try to escape

Feel
A burning in my lungs
Think I'm too far gone
To get myself out this time
I hate when they tell me that I should try harder
And there's no such thing as a mental disorder
It's all in my head
That's what they said
Then why can't I get the fuck out of my bed
They probably wouldn't care if I'm not here

I'm lost, can't be found
I speak but make no sound
And my thoughts weigh me down
Will I swim or will I drown?
Words are spoken underwater
Through the echoes in the waves
Maybe everything gets better
If I don't try to escape

Don't wake me up
I've had enough
Just leave me numb and painless
Don't wake me up
My time is up
Just set me free
I know they wouldn't care
If I'm not here

I'm lost, can't be found
I speak but make no sound
And my thoughts weigh me down
Will I swim or will I drown
Words are spoken underwater
Through the echoes in the waves
Maybe everything gets better
If I don't try to escape
(If I don't try)