That Boy Was Never Gonna Change

Bad bets, regrets
The evidence outweighed the defense
Even then, I kept all your secrets
Every time you crossed the line
And it makes no sense
I'm on trial if the crime is yours
Then why am I the one paying for it
When I've already done my time?

But now I got that hindsight (hindsight)
Bird's-eye view from so high (so high)
Up in the sky
I'd go back in time, I'd
Tell myself every time that he said he'd tried
He lied

Save your pennies and your nickels and your dimes
You'll be waiting here a very long time
That boy was never, no that boy was never
You could spend your twenties wishing that he might
But you might be waiting the rest of your life
That boy was never, no that boy was never gonna change

All my grieving
Done on display while they watched, critiquing
Buried my heart while it was still beating
As vultures circled in the sky
Whispered treasons
It's like I'm awake at my wake, I'm screaming
Why are they acting like I can't hear them?
How could she not have seen the signs?

But now I got that hindsight (hindsight)
Bird's-eye view from so high (so high)
Up in the sky
I'd go back in time, I'd
Tell myself when you felt something wasn't right
You were right

Save your pennies and your nickels and your dimes
You'll be waiting here a very long time
That boy was never, no that boy was never
You could spend your twenties wishing that he might
But you might be waiting the rest of your life
That boy was never, no that boy was never gonna change

But if I had a penny for every lie
Every tear that I've cried
For a stupid boy, I would die
The wealthiest woman alive
And just to spite you I might
With every song that I write
Diamonds every time someone streams this line
We might be splitting our things in half
But you're getting more than that
My youth, my trust, my body
All the things that I can't get back
And no, woah
Can't give me that back
You can't give me that back
The damage is done
The coast is sunk
The war is over but nobody won
An empty habit while you're holding that gun
If you want my two cents
Just run

Save your pennies and your nickels and your dimes
You'll be waiting here a very long time
That boy was never, no that boy was never
You could spend your twenties wishing that he might
But you might be waiting the rest of your life
That boy was never, no that boy was never gonna change