Suicidol

I didn't ask to be born
But I'm terrified to die as much as I'm terrified of life
Give me a reason to live
To justify these marks of worthless existence that I glorify

It's not going to be okay

I'm your idol, idol
Your suicidol, suicidol
I am the one who fills your void
Now come sing with me

Your ideal, ideal
You're suicidal, suicidal
Nothing would save us from this life
Now come scream with me

You wanted to love this world
But what's left is the hatred towards yourself
In fact, you've been realizing that there's no meaning
Reenact your death, embrace the emptiness
Open up the gate of flesh, reality is cold and cruel
Is it comforting a little bit in the madness you're drenched in?

It's not that I adore death
It's just that I despise life
I still love you
I just couldn't love myself anymore

It's not going to be okay

I'm your idol, idol
Your suicidol, suicidol
I am the one who fills your void
Now come sing with me

Your ideal, ideal
You're suicidal, suicidal
Nothing would save us from this life
Now come scream with me

The world is full of misery, there's no hope in sight
You're trying over and over again to pull yourself up a little higher
But you're only falling lower and lower again
Until you're completely drained out
I know how you feel
Don't cry anymore
It will all end soon
Because
I won't die instead of you

Open up the gate of flesh, your ideal is too far to reach
Was it comforting a little bit in the madness you're drenched in?