Silly Billy

Deep inside the house of mirrors
Falsehoods drawing near
Through the blur and haze of all our days
It's only seeming so unclear

Forgive my disposition
Just a you in true fruition

I remember dimming the streetlight
I know every night
Oh, each foe we've bested
God, each useless fight
All for naught
All such pointless manifesting

Quite the iconography
You've garnered on your journey
Know such iconography
Was never yours exclusively

I know your venture's mine
Bore in our fear and in our minds
Or in the trenches of our kind
I lurked in eigengrau and pined
For when I taste your praise divine
Out pouring like wine

Your praise
Remains
The blood inside my veins
So take
That stake
Stab it through
And show me your way

If I'm the me
I truly ought to be
Then undeniably, it's clearly
Plain to see
I was never free
From thoughts of jealousy
Diminished vanity
And all the other thoughts that I couldn't concede

Forever free
God, hear me

Who reflects who?
Why can't I stack up to you?
And why are the skies not the shade of blue
I've grown acquainted to?

You are something greater
For when it all turns to dust
Just as everything must
We can cut through the crowds, hereby saying

Sup, bro
Can't you get enough, yo?
Hey, check out my dope flow
Can't live up to yours, though
That's apparent

You blow
Not even a tough foe
I don't mean to hit low (I won't hit low)
Echoing an ego
So transparent

So, is this the way you fought them?
Tell me, is this how you brought them
To their knees with melodies?
Oh, such a feeble way you taught them

How strange
Spite this form change
No matter what I say
I can't see your way
Doesn't matter (oh)

Shatter my false perspective (shattered spectives)
It won't change my true objective (my objective)
View our form, how you reject it (ooh)
No point trying to correct it (ooh)

Can't accept your complexion (your complexion)
Best I take a new direction (next direction)
Unlike those who try to hurt you (ooh)
I'm a beast of my own virtue (ooh)

Some would say that we were weaker
Some see more
Just a little, feeble glimpse of what's in store
At its core, you're

No longer the you
That you're accustomed to
Now I can see that it's true
By all the actions you do
That disheartening smile
It's strewn apart and defiled
It's vile, isn't it?

Feel how that ego's drifting
Out to sea, where tides are shifting
Piercing through the heavens' prism
Shimmering a form now risen

Spreading out our torn wings
Sounding for the fool's king
Made our marks on this plane
Made the silence fear our name

Can't even dare complain, 'cause I know
We'd do anything to cling onto our reign
Shared our shame
I know we're just the same
In that way

Yet I can't see the line drawn in the sand
What I fail to understand's
Every step I take, I'm damned
With the pow'r, yet here we stand

'Twixt the lion and the lamb
Says the liar of the land
Every reason that I ran's
Every reason that I am

The scar on the mountain of my marks
Saved the face, still, it drilled into my heart

It all just happened so fast
Au revoir to the ending never built to last
So hold on tight, for there's no fighting the past
Now I won't forget, till the flame
That I cast is set ablaze

Every moment that has brought us to this
I need to praise
Help me carry on, for my own remiss
To count my days
I pray

Tell me why can't you just understand that I care?
The world spins on, and it spins to despair
But you still know I'll be there
It's all been heard before
The battle's been turned to a war
And for more
The tears just cloud the things
That I've been fighting for
Our memory
Break the reverie

All, just for nothing at all
Will I still be here standing tall
As I watch myself fall
Trying to answer your call?

Face the final curtain
I've got a path to tread
I'll stay determined

Better being burned
Better looking back
But of one thing I am certain

I'll make
You say
How proud
You are of me
So, stay
Awake
Just long
Enough to see
My way

(How long will it take)
(To feel my will break?)
(Forgive thy mistakes)
(We'll start anew)

My way

(You know that I'm here)
(Present in this fear)
(My love, it's so clear)
(So stay)

Why? Look at us, we're yin and yang here
Strung together
You wanted true reflection
Thus you shall reflect forever

You hear those pesky demons?
Keep them inside
And as they try to break out
Make them give up, 'cause I've already tried

Know they all lied
Now I must confide

Deep inside your heart
Your soul
Your skill
Your eyes
Your face
Your sound
Your will
Your mind
Your friends
Your foes
Your self
Your kind
Your skin
Your bones
Your imminent demise