Back to Myself

Nothing to recall
What if I just cannot give a name
To what I think there is to blame
I'm only
freezing it out
Castaway too
numb to feel
Hail or silk or burning steel
I'm wounded by wars
I never really fought
Danny says it happens
but I would rather say
I'm deserving my time
to breathe and scream it out
And how would anyone expect me
here to shout
"I'm glad myself is back"
I long to cry out loud
I've been outside myself
and frosting in your doubts
But I won't trail along with...

Lithium as I wake up
Coffee to anaesthetize my shame
Doctors make it harder,
I'd only smoke it away
How can I throw it all to waist,
that bitter taste

And now it's my turn
to spread it all about
You thought you'd get away
with all your lies so proud?
But I won't trail along
It's time to breathe and scream it out
I've been outside myself
and frosting in your doubts
But the ice is gonna crack.