Not The First Time

So i got a little drunk and embarrassed myself
It's not the first time
Thought something would happen, thought you were something else
That was a big lie
I never really ever meant to be taking everything so seriously
It's not the first time
And i should know better
But i guess i don't
I don't know a thing about you
Besides the fact that i want to
Don't leave me here without you
Tried to make you miss me but you wouldn't oblige
So i said, "get out
Yeah, get the fuck out"
The whiskey on my breath started to fall from my eyes
Just like a rain cloud
Yeah, i'm a dark cloud
I never really ever meant to be
Presenting myself so desperately
It's not the first time
And i should know better
If i thought it'd make you stay
I would chop off both your legs
But knowing you you'd find a way to keep on leaving
Well don't leave cause all i want is you to just pretend to feel it
Or i guess i don't